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There is no more Miss goody-two-shoes Katie! All that shit is over with. I don't give a fuck about no one!
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[25 May 2004|08:55pm] |
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I just bummed around today. It was fun. I slept in...kinda. Then took an afternoon nap til I had to go to work. I can't believe the cruise is only in a couple of days. Wow! Four days of fun in the sun. This is the agenda:
Friday: arrive at noon and lay by the pool, eat dinner with the family, go to the club and get wasted (I'm 18, I can drink on the cruise! yay)
Saturday: Wake up lay by the pool, walk around the place we stop and buy souviners (froggies), see a movie with my brother and fernanda, go to the club and drink more!
Sunday: Wake up, walk around the island we are at and buy stuff, tan on the beach, eat dinner with the family, sleep
Monday: get home, sleep
hehe. I can't wait its goign to be so much fun I know it. The best part is I'm all by myself and I don't have anyone but myself to please.
Tomarrow I am going shopping. I got $700 for gradution and I think I need to go shopping. hehe.
Oh yeah, Jorgie is mad at me! Sorry babe, but i told you just because I'm 18 doesn't mean I'm going to help you out. I can't do that. I'm sorry sweetheart.
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| When love is true, you just feel it |
[24 May 2004|08:11pm] |
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Last wed. I was amlost the stupidest person in the world. I can't believe the thoughts that went through me head. I almost made the same mistake for the 3rd time. I'M SO DUMB. But I stopped myself and I am so glad I did. If I was stpid enough to do it then I might as well be killed.
Today was the best, Luis and I went to the beach for the day. Sometimes I forget that he is my boyfriend like I just think whatever then I look at him and realize that I am actually sitting next to Luis Melendez...last year when I told him I couldn't talk to him anymore I thought that was it, it was over I lost my shot with him. But now we've been together 2 1/2 months and he still takes my breat away when I look at him. I've never been so comfortable around him. His made me more open, more carefree. Around im I feel like I can do anything. Well anyway, we went to the beach, played in the water for awhile then took a long walk where we both got so burnt. But we had fun, then we went back to his house and went swimming for like an hour and then I wanted to go home because I am beat, now here I am.
Friday I leave for my cruise. yay! I am so excited but, then at the same time i am goingto miss luis so much. 4 days with out him, ahhhh! I don't know what I'm gonna do! I might go insane. I was thinking about this the other night. I think i have found the love of my life. Someone I can spend hours and days with and never get bored of. I love him so much, with out him...I dunno what I'd do.
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| "Why you gotta go and make things so complicated?" |
[18 May 2004|10:35am] |
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Sigh, dammit! things got too complicated. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. Luis and I were supposed to get together and then we would be happy forever. But what happened was we got together and had to start woring 2 jobs to help out his parents. So now I hardly ever see him and it makes me sad. But thats not the complicated part, I'm fine with that, sometims i get upset, but i have my friends so whatever. The complicated part is...well I can't really write about it. Its just i slipped and told one of my friends i had a huge crush on him in the beginning of the year and now things between him and i got wierd. And I don't know what to do.
Well anyways I have to go shoe shopping for graduation...i hate heels!
Love you!
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| You won't have to ask if I still care `Coz as the time turns the page, my love won't age at all |
[12 May 2004|07:32pm] |
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I didn't go to 1st or 2nd again today, instead I went to Luis' again. I had fun, like always. We didn't fall asleep today we just talked and goffed around. He's my dork! We made the same stupid decision again that we did yesterday. Only today it had a hilarious, yet scary outcome. hehe. You have no idea! So anyways then I went to school in the middle of 3rd again, talked to Jon, the kid who sits behind me. We started talking about old crushes and I told him how in the beginning of the school year I had a crush on him. He said he thought I was cute, but didn't think I was his type. Well now we are in relationships. Him and his girlfriend are sooo cute! But anyways, that was funny. After school I went to Luis' again. He is so dorky, and I love him so much. He is so cute.
MOnday I had my birthday "party". It was just a bunch of friends came over and we hung out ate pizza and cake and just whatever. It started with just Kevin, Luis, Danni, and me. But by the end of the night it was Kevin, Luis, Danni, Nicole, Armando, Minority (Ashley), Jon, JT, Tory, Alex, David, Buck, My brother, and Fernanda. WOW! So yeah that was an interesting night. The REAL party is gonna be over the summer. We're gonna see if Luis' cousin can get us a hotel room and some alcohol....yeah buddy, gonna get FUCKED UP! hehe.
School ends friday! GOOD! I'M OVER IT! I can't wait.
Well I'm gonna go. I'll talk to you later.
I Luv Luis! hehe
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| "We probably shouldn't be doing this....oh well." |
[11 May 2004|08:37pm] |
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Wow, today was filled with bad decisions. haha. Well I'll give the short version. Woke up this morning, I think I had a fever. I had to go to third though because I had to present my final. So I was on my way to school and I made a detour to Luis' just to say hi to my baby. And because his last day is tomarrow he was sleeping in til third. hehe, so of course I slept in with him. We slept til about 8:45 and he took a shower and I layed in his bed just kinda drifting in and out. Well somehow I dunno, I ended up not getting to school til 10:15 eeeek! But thank god I still got to do my presentation. At lunch I hung out with Jorgie :), he always makes me smile. I'm glad he is one of my friends, he really is a great guy. hehe he made me feel dumb with his am I touching you trick. I'm a blonde what can I say! Well after school I went back to Luis' house. hehe. I really love him so much. Friday is 2 months! He is taking me out to dinner and a movie then out AGAIN on saturday. I love him! He called me today and left a message on my answering machine saying he just wanted to tell me he loved me just in case I forgot. He got a new job, he is excited, I am happy for him he is gonna be making like $200 a week almost! wow my baby is gonna be rich and be able to get all the stuff for his car that he needs. And he has an interveiw with a college tomarrow. I am so excited for him, all this great stuff is coming to him. yay. And my dad is starting to be nice. Well see what happened was my dad freaked out and said he got scared because I was gonna be 18 and I was gonna start looking at guys to marry and have kids with. LUIS AND I HAVE BEEN TOGETHER 2 MONTHS!! holy cow man. But I have to admit I am so happy with him, and in a year or so, yeah I would marry him no doubt. I really love him, you guys have no idea! he just makes me soooooooooo happpy! Yay. I have a huge smile on my face now. I can't wait til tomarrow when i get to be in his arms again. well i have to go practice my sign language final!
bye!
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| Just random venting |
[08 May 2004|05:59pm] |
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Things have been confusing with me and a lot of people lately. I don't know where things are going. High school is ending and I'm getting pretty excited. I can't wait until its all over. I can't wait to be 18 and live my own life. I want to move out of my house. Luis and I talked about it, I don't think he was serious but I was. I can' live here anymore. I think I seriously hate my dad. I think if I ever moved out I probably wouldn't ever talk to him again. My mom, she finally grew balls and learned to stand up to him and what he is doing to me, but she's still scared of him. I just want out of here. Its so unfair, because I'm a girl I get treated like shit. I wish I could fast forward my life 4 years from now. I'd be living with Luis, maybe getting married, I'd be settled in a good job, so will he. I dunno the future looks so much better than right now. My dad is just trying to ruin everything and its emotionally drainning me. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm gad I have Luis and his mom though, they have been so supportive. His mom is so sweet I wish i could find a way to thank her for being such a great person to me, and helping me through this. She is just wonderful. Well I have to go. I think I might have strep throat or soemthing like that. My thraot is KILLING me. I just want to take a nap.
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[05 May 2004|06:55pm] |
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Well lets see. Last night was the worst night of my life. I have never cried so hard, and been so scared before. I was actually shaking and hyper ventalating and all that shit. All because I thought I was going to lose Luis. See this is what went down. Luis barrowed my year book and my dad flipped out on me saying I was inconciderate, selfish, and shit like that. OVER A YEARBOOK! Then Luis gets here and he starts yelling at him that he treats me like shit, when Luis is the best guy I've ever dated and acts the most like a gentlemen around me, but whatever! So my dad is talking out his ass not know what he is saying and I couldn't take it anymore so me and Luis left. We went to the eckards parking lot by my house and I started to ball! I really truely thought i was going to lose him. I thought I was going to get home and my dad was going to say that I couldn't see him anymore. We went back to Luis' house and he started to cry a little too. We just sat there and held eachother for a long time and I cried. Long story short I got home and my parents yelled some more but never said I couldn't see Luis. I was so happy I didn't car how long i was in trouble I still got to be with him and thats all I care about. They can take my car, my money, and everything I have, but as long as Luis is in my life I am happy. Luis and I are coming up on our 2month...kinda. Its weird I haven't gotten bored or annoyed with im yet. I still flirt with him and pick on him and try to make him laugh and he does the same thing. We have the same relationship I always wished I had when I was with Jimmy. He always makes me laugh and smile. We never run out of things to talk about. Tyler says we are so right for each other because we are huge dorks. Oh well, I'd rather be dorky with someone than miserable. And I love our dorky relationship. I love him and I couldn't imagaine ever hurting him, he is so precious to me.
JORGE IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND BY THE WAY I just wanted to add that. He saved my ass yesterday and I can't thank him enough. He is wonderful and such a great friend. I love you Jorgie. Thank you again...I owe you!
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[25 Apr 2004|06:26pm] |
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I don't know where to start. Things have been going at like 700 miles an hour lately. I spend everday with Luis and I can't begin to explain how much fun I have with him. Its like we can just be sitting there not saying a word watching a movie and this feeling of utter happiness comes over me. I feel so loved when i am in his arms. Sometimes he can make me laugh so hard I am going to pee my pants. Like the other night we were in his room watching tv ad his dog came in jumping around and biting and stuff so Luis started yellign at the do "Rusty! You're such a cock block! Yeah you...asshole, bitch, your mother was a bitch...get off the bed shaba shaba!" I was laughing so hard because the dog was just laying there looking at him out of the corner of his eye and didn't budge. It was so funny.
Thursday I went to Point with Luis, Tyler and Kevin. Luis, Kevin and I hide from Tyler we kept going up to the roof then running down to the game area then back again like 3 times. I met the manager Mike who needed a "sex change" i think. And Bob who gave me free fries. It was fun.
Fridy I saw 13 going on 30 just Luis and I. It was good. It was us and like 5 other people so we found a row of seats and i just laid in his arms. It was kinda roamntic...considering we were in a movie theater. I met his ex...ahhh she is so ugly. Even her new boyfriend said I look better then her. Thats kind of said really. But he said she was a bitch and really ugly so Luis will be holding on to me for awhile. I'm glad! I really like him and i DO NOT want to lose him. Unlike I did with Jimmy I am going to everything in my power to make sure I do not lose him. He means everything to me. I love him so much. I don't know how i ever lived with out him.
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[24 Apr 2004|07:53pm] |
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Life has been crazy! I can't believe how fast these last couple weeks of high school are going. Last monday I went on a "field trip" with all the athletic trainers, it was so much fun. I haven't laugh so hard in I don't know how long. I had such a great time. I missed hanging out with those people during football.
Luis and I are doing wonderful. I have never been so intreged by someone. I learn something new everyday about him. And our relationship is so innocent. We are taking things SUPER slow and I love it! He makes me laugh so hard and then other times we have conversations that make me feel like he knows me way too well. And he does. He knows when I'm sad or mad with out me saying anything at all to him. We have spent every single day together for over a month and a half and i still get butterflies everytime I see him. I am just so in love with him, no one would understand.
But anyway you guys don't really care about the gooy details of my life so I'm gonna go.I am so happy now and I finally feel like everything I have ever wanted is falling into place. I don't want anything to change from how it is right now. I love life and i love me...
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[19 Apr 2004|07:02am] |
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HAVE FUN AT SCHOOL CAUSE I WON'T BE THERE.
when i get time im goin to have LONG update there is so much i need to say...
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[10 Apr 2004|08:08pm] |
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Crap! Jason got caught today. His dad is pissed. I mean his dad is a freaking cop. He called me at like 6 and told me he needed me to come over so I rushed to his house. When i got there he looked like he was going to cry! His lip was a quivering and it was so sad. I feel terrible for him. He is so innocent. I know it sounds funny, but he is a sweet heart. I love that kid. But I'm gonna go back over tonight because I promised him I would just in case his dad is ripping him apart again. Everyone mekes mistakes, I wish his parents weren't so hard on him. Poor guy.
So I dyed my hair blonde yesterday. $80! Stupid expert hair dyers! lol. Its cool my guy was gay and he was sooo funny! My hair took forever though. I've never had it professionally done b4. But it looks so nice. I love it.
Work today sucked. The people there (excluding RAY) are pissing me off big time! THey keep trying to screw me over. But I said a big fat FUCK YOU to them and put my foot down. Actually I complained to Ray and he told them a big fat FUCK YOU. hehe. If you call the store now my voice is on the answering machine. hehe.
Oh so 1 month til my birthday (May 10th) and 1 month and 18 days til the cruise. Hello hotties! hehe I can't wait.
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[09 Apr 2004|11:46am] |
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Good Friday...skipped again. I hate school. Everyday I am late and I've been skipping a whole bunch. I just don't see the point. I don't do anything in 4 out of 5 of my classes. Why even go? Sign Language is a joke. Me, Becky, Danni, and Nicole are always getting yelled at. What the fuck! Oh well maybe we'll get kicked out again for good.
My parents are being assholes. They are being tough on me because their little girl is growing up. So what! I'm 17 my curfew is 9:30 on school nights and 12 on weekends. THats a joke! Whatever next week their in Vegas, I'll be spending the night at "jessie's" and I'll be having a fucking great time.
1 months till I'm 18. HOLLER! hehe. I can't wait. I'll be a fuckign adult and my parents can't say shit about it anymore. Hell yeah!
Luis and I are doing great! He is wonderful. With all the shit that is going on right now he is the best thing I have. He is just wonderful to me. Its weird how you see someone one way then when you take a closer look they are so different. I think he will end up being the best boyfriend I have ever had. I dunno its like everything I tried to make Jimmy be, Luis is. Maybe thats why I've always been so drawn to him. Did you know its funny all through high school we have hung out with the same friends, sat and had classes tigh near each other and its just now that we are meeting. Its funny how things work out. Its like fate was waiting for the perfect time to bring him into my life. I think if I had met him sooner I wouldn't have appreciated him as much. Well I'm going to dye my hair. haha. See you all later!
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| "Its gonna be called the Katie drift now" --Luis |
[06 Apr 2004|09:15pm] |
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I drove a 5speed yesterday and didn't stall, not even once. I'm so excited about getting me integra!
Next Wed...the 14th yippie! What am I going do do? Its been so long since this happened...
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| "I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do" |
[04 Apr 2004|08:16pm] |
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Friday was so much fun! Senior skip day baby! First I went to Denny's with Danni and Catlin and that was so much fun. Then we went to Flips house. That was hilarious. His brothers or whatever they are are pretty cool. At 10 Luis got called out of school so I went to his house and we feel asleep. Its was nice to hang out with him. I think things are getting serious with us. I have so much fun with him and he TALKS to me. We just talk for hours and hours. We just have so much in common and its great hanging out with him. But anywayz I went to work at 330-4 and made $20 just for showing up. hehe. At night I went to Luis' again and I think we made things official. Yay! I've been waiting for him to ask me out for awhile now.
Saturday I worked til 5 then I went to Danny's and then to dinner with Luis and his dad. His dad is so adorable. After dinner we went back to his house and watched some japanese thing on Spike TV funny!
Today not much happened I went to work and came home. fun.
So I forgot to mention that awhile ago when Luis and I drove up to Bithlo on the way back this song came on it was weird. We both got really quiet and just listened to the words. Neither of us ever said anything about our "moment" but friday Luis told me that the song reminded him of us. How like we were two completely different people in our last relationship then we are now. Its the truth though, I've never laughed and smiled so much. And I never felt this comfortable with anyone. Most of all I've never felt this was before...he's really changed who i am and its amazing to me. There's parts in the song that say I "hurt you" the reason the pertains to us is I've liked Luis since last Jan. and he's liked me. But for some reason I stayed with Jimmy knowing that I had feelings, DEEP feelings for Luis. And it hurt him and me that we stayed with our ex's for so long instead of breaking up with them for each other. But I'm glad I finally got the courage to because no one has ever treated me the way he does. He is everything I was looking for to begin with. Nothing about him would i ever change!
THE REASON -- HOOBASTANK
I'm not a perfect person
Theres many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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[29 Mar 2004|05:32pm] |
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I'm so glad I have such great friends. They really made me forget everything this weekend. Here is the recap:
FRIDAY NIGHT Tyler and I went to the mall and walked around for awhile. Yippie. He's a sweetheart I had a lot of fun with him. He makes me laugh. Then we went to Kevins but he wasn't home, so we went to Luis' where Luis, Tyler, Jessie, Kevin, Chris, Jason and I hung out til midnight and I went home.
SATURDAY I worked during the day and Tyler and Luis stopped by to say hi. At night I went to get my cell phone fixed then Tyler called and told me to come over. So I went to his house and we hung out for awhile then went to Danny's house. I met Danny's cousin and he has such a nice car! OMG! Luis and I got in a fight but worked it out. Danny taught me to play Cricket and then we played frisbee in the middle of the road til 11 and I went home.
SUNDAY we were supposed to all go to the beach but everyone cancelled on Luis and I. So Me LUis and Kevin went to breakfast then to Jason's for a little while. Around 12 we ended up at Luis' where Jessie and I (we picked her up sometime during the day) tanned. Luis Kevin and Tyler cleaned the pool but it was too cold so the guys went to Target and bought a Kiddie pool. hehe it was so funny. The 5 of us in a tiny pool. Then around 3 after we were all burnt Jason came over and I tried on his jump suit. hehe it made my ass look HUGE! Kevin went home at 330 because he had to go to work. Then Jessie and Tyler and Jason sat by the pool and talked and I went inside to take a nap. Luis and I ended up having a long serious talk about everything. I love that he is my best friend. He always makes me feel better. He is such a great guy I am glad I have him in my life.
TODAY I went to luis' after school like everyday and we went to pick up Tyler, I was hungry so we went to McDonalds and George, Tommy, George's gf, some megan girl and Vicki were there so we all sat together. Luis said Vicki and I look alike. hehe. I peed on myself, not really Tyler made me laugh really hard and I spit my drink on myself. hehe.
NEVER A DULL MOMENT.
Today I also went to Jorge's house to me the notebook! HE BETTER REMEMBER TO BRING IT TOMARROW OR I AM GOING TO BE UPSET...I COULDN'T FIND WHEN I WENT SEARCHING THROUGH YOUR ROOM, HEHE, I COULDN'T FIND MY PIG EITHER BUT THATS NOT IMPORTANT. I NEED THOSE QUOTES AND THE POEM JORGIE!
Well thats all. I'm gonna do. Love you guys!
"I love you more than words can say,
I love you more each and everyday,
when were together its so much fun
because your a million things roled into one."
"It is good when he is just your boyfriend...but it is better when he is your best friend too."
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[27 Mar 2004|09:15am] |
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The last few days have been interesting. I've done a complete 180 since the last time I last wrote in here. Last time I missed Jimmy now I don't care if I never see his face again. I found out that dispite me asking a million times if he was doing ANYTHING behind my back that would upset me and he told me he wasn't he was calling another girl that he worked with. I guess everytime we had a fight he would call her up and talk to her for hours. I know i cheated on him but it was when we were first together and I admitted to it after confronting him he still lies about it so that makes me think there was something else going on to maybe there was other girls other than her. I don't know. I don't care I'm glad I broke up with when I did. I knew there was something going on, it was that "womens intuition". So whatever. I was going to stop writing in livejournal to but I like livejournal it lets me vent. So I'm staying.
I am on the hunt for a good guy now. Anyone know anyone? I want him my age or older, cute, funny, sweet, masculine, and smart (common sense!). Last night Tyler and I went to the mall guy hunting. Okay well we went to the mall so I can get a bikini for the beach sunday, but tyler was trying to hook me up with everyone. Its funny. So then after I found the perfect bathing suit (it looks so hot on me even my mom said so hehe, I'll take pics tomarrow) we went to George's house then left and went to Luis' where we pretended to be stoned. hehe. That was Tylers idea, what a fag!
So yeah tomarrow, guy hunting on the beach! I need a hottie. lol. I have to wrok I'll talk to you guys later!
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| Sorry I hurt you |
[23 Mar 2004|08:07pm] |
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Sorry, is a hard word to say,
When you know of the games your emotions play.
Why does it have to hurt so deep,
With all the tears inside you weep.
To you I am so sorry, for all the word's I said,
Words that hurt you, and were wrongfully lead.
I never meant to do this, It was such a bad mistake,
But it kept getting deeper with each step I seemed to make.
Finally, it's all out in the open and our eyes can see,
What was totally misleading and not what it was to be.
I have no excuses for the pain I have caused you,
Only sorrow in my heart as the pain is so true.
Maybe one day, you can forgive me, and say hello once more,
But, I understand the pain, as I slowly shut the door.
I shut the door to our friendship, and to this fantasy,
A dream I had of being someone other than me.
I hurt you, and I will always feel that pain,
In the bottom of my heart, there will always be this stain.
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